Random Thoughts

OK... this is going to be totally random.. 

I just got Skype. which is a cool video/chat/ free application that connects you to people around the world. it has Privacy settings so that You get to choose who you talk to... Mine must not work because I got two different calls from a Sex on Call, and A SEXI BOY. I declined both and blocked them so they could not contact me again... AM I Scared? Yes.... Do I like this No. But I do love talking to my Best friends from all over. Like Leeci who moved to Oklahoma... where sweeping down the plains... :) She and I had a nice Chat about life and how people make it worthwhile. 

I guess I will have to avoid the Calls and Chats with strangers. Gag... Or figure out the Privacy settings... which I checked Twice... 

On a Brighter note. I called the Lodge and talked with the manager... so I might be working at the lake this summer! WAHOO!!

I got Two cards From Allen and loved it. He is so darn cute, and very sentimental. He takes great care of me. He is doing well and I will hear from him on Monday!!

Can't decide wether to go to the dance or not... I have mixed emotions. I don't have a date... but it's a singles dance.... So I don't know... 

I have to sing in singles ward on the 27th. Any Ideas on what to sing? I am thinking Come thou font... but I have been singing that one for a while. 

Love FireProof. Good movie...

Well I am going to wrap this up with a little thought from Allen....

"Love never fails. It stands strong even during rough times... "

BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR...

So I wanted a Job... I guess I have one. My Grandma Fell in her basement and cracked a rib. It's painful for her to sit down, or lie down. So I have been "hired" to come take care of them. I also agreed to watch my brother's and Sister's kids. SO I am babysitting 24/7. I watch four kids from 8:30- 3:30, then I have to be "home" at my grandparents at 5:00. Lovely. I do hope that I am able to take the job at Redfish lake during the summer... but so far I like my jobs. I just have to learn how to be able to help grandma without causing her more Pain... yay. 

Wish Me Luck!!

Happy Endings?

Why am I so afraid of being alone? I am really scared of always living in the distance. My parents asked me what I would do if I Never Married. I told them that the Military would be a good option because I beleive that it would keep me busy, but It was like they sent a dagger into my heart. I don't want to ever be alone. Who does? 

If I never married I would probably get a Big Dog, a small house and find a podunk job and try to live as painlessly as possible. If that could happen. I could join the military. I would travel, see places. but what could fill the empty ache in my chest? I don't know. 

there is always the opposite effect. being married to someone that uses, abuses, and hurts you. With my luck I could end up in one of these.  I think I would rather live with the Big Dog alone. 

But even with my Luck, my dog would get run over.